Mellen-Thomas Benedict is an artist who
survived a near-death experience in 1982. He was dead for over an hour
and a half
after dying of cancer. At the time of his death, he rose up out of his
body and went into the light. Curious about
the universe, he was taken far into the remote depths of existence, and
even beyond, into
the energetic void of nothingness behind the Big Bang. During his
experience, he was able to learn a great deal of information concerning
reincarnation. Because of his near-death experience, he was able to
back scientific discoveries. Mr. Benedict has been closely involved in
the mechanics of cellular communication and research dealing with the
relationship of light to
life called Quantum Biology. This research is providing dramatic new
perspectives on how biological systems work.
Mr. Benedict has found that living cells can respond very quickly to
light stimulation resulting in, among other things, high speed healing.
He is a researcher, inventor and lecturer who holds six U.S. patents.
weeks after Benedict was born, he may experienced a NDE when his bowels were
ruptured. His body was tossed to one side as a corpse, yet much to
everyone's surprise he later revived. As soon as he was big enough to grab
hold of crayons, he started what became a compulsive urge to create symbolic
renditions of the black/white yin/yang circles of Eastern religious thought.
He has no memory of why he drew those particular symbols.
He spent his grade school years in a Catholic boarding school in Vermont,
and was baptized in the Salvation Army religion as a youngster. He traveled
extensively because of a military stepfather until the family finally
settled down in Fayetteville, North Carolina.
Then, Benedict was diagnosed as having inoperable cancer. He had retired
from the frenzy of filmdom by then and was operating his own stained-glass
studio. As his condition worsened, he spent more and more time with his art.
One morning he awakened knowing he would die the next day, and he did. As
the typical heaven-like scenario began to unfold, Benedict recognized what
was happening as it was happening. The process was familiar to him because
he had read many books about the near-death phenomenon previously.
Mr. Benedict's NDE is reprinted here by the permission of his friends
Lee Worth Bailey and
Jenny Yates. Their excellent book entitled The
Near-Death Experience: A Reader, published by Routledge, New York, in
1996, is highly recommended by the webmaster. A portion of his near-death experience
also appears in P.M.H.
Atwater's book, Beyond
the Light. Concerning Mellen's near-death experience, Dr.
Ken Ring remarked, "His story is one of the most remarkable I have encountered in my
extensive research on near-death experiences."
Atwater has the following to say about Mellen-Thomas Benedict:
"I can attest
that his case is genuine and his claims about the brain tumor and the
conditions of his death are true. I have met his mother and step-father,
been in his and their homes, and have followed his life since - his
struggles and his accomplishments - as he sought to find a way to integrate
his experience into his daily life while still honoring the mission he felt
guided to fulfill."
The Road to Death
In 1982 I died from terminal
cancer. The condition I had was inoperable, and any kind of
chemotherapy they could give me would just have made me more of a
vegetable. I was given six to eight months to live. I had been an
information freak in the 1970's, and I had become increasingly despondent
over the nuclear crisis, the ecology crisis, and so forth. So, since I did
not have a spiritual basis, I began to believe that nature had made a
mistake, and that we were probably a cancerous organism on the planet. I
saw no way that we could get out from all the problems we had created for
ourselves and the planet. I perceived all humans as cancer, and that is
what I got. That is what killed me. Be careful what your world view is. It
can feed back on you, especially if it is a negative world view. I
had a seriously negative one. That is what led me into my death. I
tried all sorts of alternative healing methods, but nothing helped.
So I determined
that this was really just between me and God. I had never really faced God
before, or even dealt with God. I was not into any kind of
spirituality at the time, but I began a journey into learning about
spirituality and alternative healing. I set out to do all the reading
I could and bone up on the subject, because I did not want to be surprised
on the other side. So I started reading on various religions and
philosophies. They were all very interesting, and gave hope that
there was something on the other side.
On the other hand, as a
self-employed stained-glass artist at the time, I had no medical insurance
whatsoever. So my life savings went overnight in testing. Then I was
facing the medical profession without any kind of insurance. I did not
want to have my family dragged down financially, so I determined to handle
this myself. There was not constant pain, but there were black-outs.
I got so that I would not dare to drive, and eventually I ended up in
hospice care. I had my own personal hospice caretaker. I was very
blessed by this angel who went through the last part of this with me. I
lasted about eighteen months. I did not want to take a lot of drugs, since
I wanted to be as conscious as possible. Then I experienced such
pain that I had nothing but pain in my consciousness, luckily only for a
few days at a time.
The Light of God
I remember waking up one
morning at home about 4:30 am, and I just knew that this was it.
This was the day I was going to die. So I called a few friends and said
goodbye. I woke up my hospice caretaker and told her. I had a private
agreement with her that she would leave my dead body alone for six hours,
since I had read that all kinds of interesting things happen when you die.
I went back to sleep. The next thing I remember is the beginning of
a typical near-death experience. Suddenly I was fully aware and I was
standing up, but my body was in the bed. There was this darkness around
me. Being out of my body was even more vivid than ordinary
experience. It was so vivid that I could see every room in the house, I
could see the top of the house, I could see around the house, I could see
under the house.
There was this light
I turned toward the light. The light
was very similar to what many other
people have described in their near-death experiences. It was so
magnificent. It is tangible; you can feel it. It is alluring; you
want to go to it like you would want to go to your ideal mother's or
As I began to move toward the
light, I knew intuitively
that if I went to the light, I would be dead.
So as I was moving toward
the light I said, "Please wait a minute, just hold on a second here.
I want to think about this; I would like to talk to you before I
To my surprise, the entire experience halted at that
point. You are indeed in control of your near-death experience. You are
not on a roller coaster ride. So my request was honored and I had
some conversations with the light. The light
kept changing into
different figures, like Jesus, Buddha, Krishna,
images and signs.
I asked the light, "What is going on here?
Please, light, clarify yourself for me. I really want to know the reality
of the situation."
I cannot really say the exact words, because
it was sort of telepathy. The light responded. The information
transferred to me was that your beliefs shape the kind of feedback you are
getting before the light. If you were a Buddhist or Catholic or
Fundamentalist, you get a feedback loop of your own stuff. You have a
chance to look at it and examine it, but most people do not.
As the light
revealed itself to me, I became aware that what I was really seeing was
our Higher Self matrix. The only thing I can tell you is that it turned
into a matrix, a mandala of human souls, and what I saw was that what we
call our Higher Self in each of us is a matrix. It's also a conduit to the
Source; each one of us comes directly, as a direct experience from the
Source. We all have a Higher Self, or an oversoul part of our being. It
revealed itself to me in its truest energy form. The only way I can really
describe it is that the being of the Higher Self is more like a conduit.
It did not look like that, but it is a direct connection to the Source
that each and every one of us has. We are directly connected to the
So the light was showing me the Higher Self matrix. And it became
very clear to me that all the Higher Selves are connected as one being,
all humans are connected as one being, we are actually the same being,
different aspects of the same being. It was not committed to one
particular religion. So that is what was being fed back to me. And I
saw this mandala of human souls. It was the most beautiful thing I have
ever seen. I just went into it and, it was just overwhelming. It was
like all the love you've every wanted, and it was the kind of love that
cures, heals, regenerates.
As I asked the light
explaining, I understood what the Higher Self matrix is. We have a
grid around the planet where all the Higher Selves are connected. This is
like a great company, a next subtle level of energy around us, the spirit
level, you might say.
Then, after a couple of minutes, I asked for more
clarification. I really wanted to know what the universe is about, and I
was ready to go at that time.
I said, "I am ready, take me."
Then the light turned into the most beautiful thing that I have ever seen:
a mandala of human souls on this planet.
Now I came to this with my
negative view of what has happened on the planet. So as I asked the light to
keep clarifying for me, I saw in this magnificent mandala how beautiful we
all are in our essence, our core. We are the most beautiful
creations. The human soul, the human matrix that we all make
together is absolutely fantastic, elegant, exotic, everything. I
just cannot say enough about how it changed my opinion of human beings in
I said, "Oh, God, I did not know how beautiful we
At any level, high or low, in whatever shape you are in, you
are the most beautiful creation, you are.
I was astonished to find that
there was no evil in any soul.
I said, "How can this be?"
The answer was that no soul was inherently evil. The terrible things
that happened to people might make them do evil things, but their souls
were not evil. What all people seek, what sustains them, is love, the light
told me. What distorts people is a lack of love.
The revelations coming from
the light seemed to go on and on, then I asked the
light, "Does this
mean that humankind will be saved?"
Then, like a trumpet blast
with a shower of spiraling lights, the Great Light spoke, saying,
"Remember this and never forget; you save, redeem and heal yourself.
You always have. You always will. You were created with the power to do so
from before the beginning of the world."
In that instant I realized
even more. I realized that
WE HAVE ALREADY BEEN SAVED, and we saved
ourselves because we were designed to self-correct like the rest of God's
universe. This is what the second coming is about.
I thanked the light
God with all my heart. The best thing I could come up with was these
simple words of totally appreciation:
"Oh dear God, dear Universe,
dear Great Self, I love my life."
seemed to breathe me in
even more deeply. It was as if the light was completely absorbing me. The
love light is, to this day, indescribable. I entered into another realm,
more profound than the last, and became aware of something more, much
more. It was an enormous stream of light, vast and full, deep in the
heart of life. I asked what this was.
"This is the
RIVER OF LIFE. Drink of this manna water to your
So I did. I took one big drink and then
another. To drink of life
Itself! I was in ecstasy.
Then the light
"You have a desire."
The light knew all about me,
everything past, present and future.
"Yes!" I whispered.
I asked to see the rest of
the universe; beyond our solar system, beyond all human illusion. The light
then told me that I could go with the Stream. I did, and was carried
through the light at the end of the tunnel. I felt and heard a
series of very soft sonic booms. What a rush!
Suddenly I seemed to be
rocketing away from the planet on this stream of life. I saw the
away. The solar system, in all its splendor, whizzed by and disappeared.
At faster than light speed, I flew through the center of the galaxy,
absorbing more knowledge as I went. I learned that this galaxy, and all of
the universe, is bursting with many different varieties of
LIFE. I saw
many worlds. The good news is that we are not alone in this universe!
As I rode this stream of consciousness through the center of the galaxy,
the stream was expanding in awesome fractal waves of energy. The super
clusters of galaxies with all their ancient wisdom flew by. At first I
thought I was going somewhere; actually traveling. But then I
realized that, as the stream was expanding, my own consciousness was also
expanding to take in everything in the universe! All creation passed
by me. It was an unimaginable wonder! I truly was a wonder child; a
babe in Wonderland!
It seemed as if all the
creations in the universe soared by me and vanished in a speck of light.
Almost immediately, a second light appeared. It came from all sides, and
was so different; a light made up of more than every frequency in the
I felt and heard several velvety sonic booms again. My
consciousness, or being, was expanding to interface with the entire
holographic universe and more.
As I passed into the second
awareness came to me that I had just transcended the truth. Those are the
best words I have for it, but I will try to explain. As I passed into the
second light, I expanded beyond the first
light. I found myself in a
profound stillness, beyond all silence. I could see or perceive
beyond infinity. I was in the
void. I was in pre-creation, before
the Big Bang. I had crossed over the beginning of time - the first word -
the first vibration. I was in the eye of creation. I felt as
if I was touching the face of God. It was not a religious feeling. Simply
I was at one with absolute life and consciousness.
When I say that I could see
or perceive forever, I mean that I could experience all of creation
generating itself. It was without beginning and without end. That's a
mind-expanding thought, isn't it? Scientists perceive the Big Bang as a
single event which created the universe. I saw that the Big Bang is only
one of an infinite number of Big Bangs creating universes endlessly and
simultaneously. The only images that even come close in human terms would
be those created by supercomputers using fractal geometry equations.
The ancients knew of this.
They said Godhead periodically created new universes by breathing out, and
de-creating other universes by breathing in. These epochs were
called yugas. Modern science called this the Big Bang. I was in
absolute, pure consciousness. I could see or perceive all the Big Bangs or
yugas creating and de-creating themselves. Instantly I entered into them
all simultaneously. I saw that each and every little piece of creation has
the power to create. It is very difficult to try to explain this. I am
still speechless about this.
It took me years after I
returned to assimilate any words at all for the void experience. I can
tell you this now; the void is less than nothing, yet more than everything
that is! The void is absolute zero; chaos forming all possibilities.
It is absolute consciousness; much more than even universal intelligence.
Where is the void? I know.
The void is inside and outside everything. You, right now even while you
live, are always inside and outside the void simultaneously. You don't
have to go anywhere or die to get there. The void is the vacuum or
nothingness between all physical manifestations. The
SPACE between atoms
and their components. Modern science has begun to study this space
between everything. They call it
zero-point. Whenever they try
to measure it, their instruments go off the scale, or to infinity, so to
speak. They have no way, as of yet, to measure infinity accurately.
There is more of the zero space in your own body and the universe than
What mystics call the void is
not a void. It is so full of energy, a different kind of energy that
has created everything that we are. Everything since the Big Bang is
vibration, from the first word, which is the first vibration.
The Biblical "I am" really has a question mark after it.
"I am? What am I?"
So creation is God exploring God's
through every way imaginable, in an ongoing, infinite exploration through
every one of us. Through every piece of hair on your head, through every
leaf on every tree, through every atom, God is exploring God's Self, the
great "I am". I began to see that everything that is, is
the Self, literally, your Self, my Self. Everything is the great
Self. That is why God knows even when a leaf falls. That is possible
because wherever you are is the center of the universe. Wherever any atom
is, that is the center of the universe. There is God in that, and God in
As I was exploring the void
and all the yugas or creations, I was completely out of time and space as
we know it. In this expanded state, I discovered that creation is about
absolute pure consciousness, or God, coming into the experience of life as
we know it. The void itself is devoid of experience. It is pre-life,
before the first vibration. Godhead is about more than life and death.
Therefore there is even more than life and death to experience in the
I was in the void and I was
aware of everything that had ever been created. It was like I was
looking out of God's eyes. I had become God. Suddenly I wasn't me anymore.
The only thing I can say, I was looking out of God's eyes. And
suddenly I knew why every atom was, and I could see everything.
The interesting point was that I went into the
void, I came back with this
understanding that God is not there. God is here. That's what
it is all about. So this constant search of the human race to go out
and find God ... God gave everything to us, everything
is here - this is where it's at. And what we are into now is God's
exploration of God through us. People are so busy trying to become God
that they ought to realize that we are already God and God is becoming us.
That's what it is really about.
When I realized this, I was
finished with the void, and wanted to return to this creation, or yuga. It
just seemed like the natural thing to do.
Then I suddenly came back
through the second light, or the Big Bang, hearing several more velvet
booms. I rode the stream of consciousness back through all of
creation, and what a ride it was! The superclusters of galaxies
came through me with even more insights. I passed through the center of
our galaxy, which is a black hole. Black holes are the great processors or
recyclers of the universe. Do you know what is on the other side of a
black hole? We are; our galaxy; which has been reprocessed from
In its total energy configuration, the galaxy looked
like a fantastic city of lights. All energy this side of the Big Bang is
light. Every sub-atom, atom, star, planet, even consciousness itself is
made of light and has a frequency and/or particle. Light is living stuff.
Everything is made of light, even stones. So everything is alive.
Everything is made from the light of God; everything is very intelligent.
The Light of Love
As I rode the stream on and
on, I could eventually see a huge light coming. I knew it was the
first light; the Higher Self light matrix of our solar system. Then the
entire solar system appeared in the light, accompanied by one of those
I saw that the solar system
we live in is our larger, local body. This is our local body and we are
much bigger than we imagine. I saw that the solar system is our body. I am
a part of this, and the earth is this great created being that we are, and
we are the part of it that knows that it is. But we are only that part of
it. We are not everything, but we are that part of it that knows that it
I could see all the energy
that this solar system generates, and it is an incredible light show!
I could hear the
music of the
spheres. Our solar system, as do all
celestial bodies, generates a unique matrix of light, sound and vibratory
energies. Advanced civilizations from other star systems can spot life as
we know it in the universe by the vibratory or energy matrix imprint. It
is child's play. The earth's wonder child (human beings) make an abundance
of sound right now, like children playing in the backyard of the universe.
I rode the stream directly
into the center of the light. I felt embraced by the
light as it took me
in with its breath again, followed by another soft sonic boom.
I was in this great light
with the stream of life flowing through me. I have to say again, it
is the most loving, non-judgmental light. It is the ideal parent for this
"What now?" I
explained to me
that there is no death; we are immortal beings. We have already been alive
forever! I realized that we are part of a natural living system that
recycles itself endlessly. I was never told that I had to come back.
I just knew that I would. It was only natural, from what I had seen.
I don't know how long I was
with the light, in human time. But there came a moment when I realized
that all my questions had been answered and my return was near. When I say
that all my questions were answered on the other side, I mean to say just
that. All my questions have been answered. Every human has a
different life and set of questions to explore. Some of our
questions are universal, but each of us is exploring this thing we call life
in our own unique way. So is every other form of life, from
mountains to every leaf on every tree.
And that is very important to
the rest of us in this universe. Because it all contributes to the Big
Picture, the fullness of life. We are literally God exploring God's Self
in an infinite Dance of Life. Your uniqueness enhances all of life.
His Return to Earth
As I began my return to the
life cycle, it never crossed my mind, nor was I told, that I would return
to the same body. It just did not matter. I had complete trust in
the light and the
life process. As the stream merged with the great
I asked never to forget the revelations and the feelings of what I had
learned on the other side.
There was a "Yes."
It felt like a kiss to my soul.
Then I was taken back through
the light into the vibratory realm again. The whole process reversed, with
even more information being given to me. I came back home, and I was given
lessons on the mechanics of reincarnation. I was given answers to all
those little questions I had:
"How does this work? How does
that work?" I knew that I would be reincarnated.
is a great
processor of energy, and individual consciousness evolves out of that into
each one of us. I thought of myself as a human for the first time, and I
was happy to be that. From what I have seen, I would be happy to be an
atom in this universe. An atom. So to be the human part of God ... this is
the most fantastic blessing. It is a blessing beyond our wildest
estimation of what blessing can be. For each and every one of us to be the
human part of this experience is awesome, and magnificent. Each and
every one of us, no matter where we are, screwed up or not, is a blessing
to the planet, right where we are.
So I went through the
reincarnation process expecting to be a baby somewhere. But I was
given a lesson on how individual identity and consciousness evolve. So I
reincarnated back into this body.
I was so surprised when I opened my
eyes. I do not know why, because I understood it, but it was still
such a surprise to be back in this body, back in my room with someone
looking over me crying her eyes out. It was my hospice caretaker.
She had given up an hour and a half after finding me dead. She was
sure I was dead; all the signs of death were there - I was getting stiff.
We do not know how long I was dead, but we do know that it was an hour and
a half since I was found. She honored my wish to have my newly dead
body left alone for a few hours as much as she could. We had an amplified
stethoscope and many ways of checking out the vital functions of the body
to see what was happening. She can verify that I really was dead.
not a near-death experience. I experienced death itself for at least an
hour and a half. She found me dead and checked the stethoscope, blood
pressure and heart rate monitor for an hour and a half. Then I awakened
and saw the light outside. I tried to get up to go to it, but I fell out
of the bed. She heard a loud "clunk", ran in and found me on the
When I recovered, I was very
surprised and yet very awed about what had happened to me. At first all
the memory of the trip that I have now was not there. I kept
slipping out of this world and kept asking, "Am I alive?"
This world seemed more like a dream than that one.
Within three days, I
was feeling normal again, clearer, yet different than I had ever felt in
my life. My memory of the journey came back later. I could see
nothing wrong with any human being I had ever seen. Before that I
was really judgmental. I thought a lot of people were really screwed
up, in fact I thought that everybody was screwed up but me. But I
got clear on all that.
About three months later a
friend said I should get tested, so I went and got the scans and so forth.
I really felt good, so I was afraid of getting bad news.
I remember the
doctor at the clinic looking at the before and after scans, saying,
"Well, there is nothing here now."
I said, "Really,
it must be a miracle?"
He said, "No, these things happen,
they are called spontaneous remission."
He acted very
unimpressed. But here was a miracle, and I was impressed, even if no
one else was.
The Lessons He Learned
The mystery of life has very
little to do with intelligence. The universe is not an intellectual
process at all. The intellect is helpful; it is brilliant, but right now
that is all we process with, instead of our hearts and the wiser part of
The center of the earth
this great transmuter of energy, just as you see in pictures of our
earth's magnetic field. That's our cycle, pulling reincarnated souls back
in and through it again. A sign that you are reaching human level is that
you are beginning to evolve an individual consciousness. The animals
have a group soul, and they reincarnate in group souls. A deer is pretty
much going to be a deer forever. But just being born a human, whether
deformed or genius, shows that you are on the path to developing an
individual consciousness. That is in itself part of the group
consciousness called humanity.
I saw that
races are personality clusters.
Nations like France, Germany and China each have their own personality.
Cities have personalities, their local group souls that attract certain
people. Families have group souls. Individual identity is evolving like
branches of a fractal; the group soul explores in our individuality.
The different questions that each of us has are very, very important.
is how Godhead is exploring God's Self - through you. So ask your
questions, do your searching. You will find your Self and you will
find God in that Self, because it is only the Self.
More than that, I began to
see that each one of us humans are soul mates. We are part of the same
soul fractaling out in many creative directions, but still the same.
Now I look at every human being that I ever see, and I see a soul mate, my
soul mate, the one I have always been looking for. Beyond that, the
greatest soul mate that you will ever have is yourself. We are each
both male and female. We experience this in the womb and we
experience this in reincarnation states. If you are looking for that
ultimate soul mate outside of yourself, you may never find it; it is
not there. Just as God is not "there." God is here. Don't
look "out there" for God. Look here for God. Look through
your Self. Start having the greatest love affair you ever had ...
with your Self. You will love everything out of that.
I had a descent into what you
might call hell, and it was very surprising. I did not see Satan or
evil. My descent into hell was a descent into each person's
customized human misery, ignorance, and darkness of not-knowing. It
seemed like a miserable eternity. But each of the millions of souls
around me had a little star of light always available. But no one seemed
to pay attention to it. They were so consumed with their own grief,
trauma and misery. But, after what seemed an eternity, I started calling
out to that light, like a child calling to a parent for help. Then
the light opened up and formed a tunnel that came right to me an insulated
me from all that fear and pain. That is what hell really is.
So what we
are doing is learning to hold hands, to come together. The doors of hell
are open now. We are going to link up, hold hands, and walk out of hell
The light came to me and turned into a huge golden angel.
I said, "Are you the angel of death?"
It expressed to me
that it was my oversoul, my Higher Self matrix, a super-ancient part of
ourselves. Then I was taken to the light.
Soon our science will
quantify spirit. Isn't that going to be wonderful? We are coming up
with devices now that are sensitive to subtle energy or spirit energy.
Physicists use these atomic colliders to smash atoms to see what they are
made of. They have got it down to quarks and charm, and all that.
Well, one day they are going to come down to the little thing that holds
it all together, and they are going to have to call that ... God. With
atomic colliders they are not only seeing what is in here, but they are
creating particles. Thank God most of them are short-lived
milliseconds and nanoseconds. We are just beginning to understand that we
are creating too, as we go along.
As I saw forever, I came to a realm in
which there is a point where we pass all knowledge and begin creating the
next fractal, the next level. We have that power to create as we explore.
And that is God expanding itself through us.
Since my return I have
experienced the light spontaneously, and I have learned how to get to that
space almost any time in my meditation. Each one of you can do this. You
do not have to die to do this. It is within your equipment; you are wired
for it already.
The body is the most magnificent
being there is. The body is a universe of incredible light. Spirit is not pushing us to
dissolve this body. That is not what is happening. Stop trying to become
God; God is becoming you. Here.
The mind is like a child
running around the universe, demanding this and thinking it created the
world. But I ask the mind:
"What did your mother have to
do with this?"
That is the next level of spiritual awareness.
Oh! My mother! All of a sudden you give up the ego, because
you are not the only soul in the universe.
One of my questions to the
light was, "What is heaven?"
I was given a tour of all the
heavens that have been created: the Nirvanas, the Happy Hunting
Grounds, all of them. I went through them. These are thought form
creations that we have created. We don't really go to heaven; we are
reprocessed. But whatever we created, we leave a part of
ourselves there. It is real, but it is not all of the soul.
I saw the Christian
We expect it to be a beautiful place, and you stand in front of the
throne, worshipping forever. I tried it. It is boring! This is all
we are going to do? It is childlike. I do not mean to offend anyone. Some
heavens are very interesting, and some are very boring. I found the
ancient ones to be more interesting, like the Native American ones, the
Happy Hunting Grounds. The Egyptians have fantastic ones. It goes on and
on. There are so many of them. In each of them there is a fractal that is
your particular interpretation, unless you are part of the group soul that
believes in only the God of a particular religion. Then you are very
close, in the same ball park together. But even then, each is a little bit
different. That is a part of yourself that you leave there. Death is about
life, not about heaven.
I asked God, "What is
the best religion on the planet? Which one is right?"
Godhead said, with great love, "I don't care."
was incredible grace. What that meant was that we are the caring beings
The Ultimate Godhead of all the stars tells
does not matter what religion you are."
They come and they go,
they change. Buddhism has not been here forever, Catholicism has not been
here forever, and they are all about to become more enlightened. More
light is coming into all systems now. There is going to be a
reformation in spirituality that is going to be just as dramatic as the
Protestant Reformation. There will be lots of people fighting about it,
one religion against the next, believing that only they are right.
Everyone thinks they own God, the religions and philosophies, especially
the religions, because they form big organizations around their philosophy.
When Godhead said, "I don't care," I immediately understood that
it is for us to care about. It is important, because we are the caring
beings. It matters to us and that is where it is important. What you have
is the energy equation in spirituality. Ultimate Godhead does not care if
you are Protestant, Buddhist, or whatever. It is all a blooming facet of
the whole. I wish that all religions would realize it and let each other
be. It is not the end of each religion, but we are talking about the same
God. Live and let live. Each has a different view. And it all adds up to
the Big Picture; it is all important.
I went over to the other side
with a lot of fears about toxic waste, nuclear missiles, the population
explosion, the rainforest. I came back loving every single problem.
I love nuclear waste. I love the mushroom cloud; this is the holiest
mandala that we have manifested to date, as an archetype. It, more than
any religion or philosophy on earth, brought us together all of a sudden,
to a new level of consciousness. Knowing that maybe we can blow up the
planet fifty times, or 500 times, we finally realize that maybe we are all
here together now. For a period they had to keep setting off more bombs to
get it in to us. Then we started saying, "We do not need this
Now we are actually in a safer world than we have
ever been in, and it is going to get safer. So I came back loving toxic
waste, because it brought us together. These things are so big. As
Russell might say, these problems are now "soul size." Do
we have soul size answers?
The clearing of the rain
forest will slow down, and in fifty years there will be more trees on the
planet than in a long time. If you are into ecology, go for it; you are
that part of the system that is becoming aware. Go for it with all your
might, but do not be depressed. It is part of a larger thing.
Earth is in the process of domesticating itself. It is never again
going to be as wild a place as it once was. There will be great wild
places, reserves where nature thrives. Gardening and reserves will be the
thing in the future. Population increase is getting very close to the
optimal range of energy to cause a shift in consciousness. That
shift in consciousness will change politics, money, energy.
What happens when we dream?
We are multi-dimensional beings. We can access that through lucid
dreaming. In fact, this universe is God's dream. One of the things that I
saw is that we humans are a speck on a planet that is a speck in a galaxy
that is a speck. Those are giant systems out there, and we are in sort of
an average system. But human beings are already legendary throughout the
cosmos of consciousness. The little bitty human being of Earth/Gaia is
legendary. One of the things that we are legendary for is dreaming. We are
legendary dreamers. In fact, the whole cosmos has been looking for the
meaning of life, the meaning of it all. And it was the little dreamer who
came up with the best answer ever. We dreamed it up. So dreams are
After dying and coming back,
I really respect life and death. In our DNA experiments we may have opened
the door to a great secret. Soon we will be able to live as long as we
want to live in this body. After living 150 years or so, there will be an
intuitive soul sense that you will want to change channels. Living forever
in one body is not as creative as reincarnation, as transferring energy in
this fantastic vortex of energy that we are in. We are actually going to
see the wisdom of life and death, and enjoy it.
As it is now, we have
already been alive forever. This body that you are in, has been alive
forever. It comes from an unending stream of life, going back to the Big
Bang and beyond. This body gives life to the next life, in dense and
subtle energy. This body has been alive forever already.